ok, so I don't really get people, and I don't understand when friends fight you have to be put in the middle of it. Especially when it's 2 people you are really close with. And why if your not the spy for either one they get upset. but the sad part is, being the spy can be a good thing. You are valuable to both people, and it gives you the opportunity to fix things. even if it takes a bit longer... it can kind of make you feel like a puppeteer though. You saying just a few things can move the strings to make things better or worse, but still if you fuck up it goes all back on you and fucks up your life, so it's better off not being the spy or puppeteer or whatever you wanna call it and kinda makes you feel like a backstabbing cunt, or realize that one of the people really do deserve to be hated. especially when they talk shit about you for being the others friend... but when you realize your kinda in like with one of them and your all confused about life yeah... this entire journal entry doesn't make any sense and I think I am ok with it. but yeah yada yada yada and all that smush.